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noone but me from URL @ 9:09 PM If you would meet me halfway, it could be the same for you.  Heh, my dad insisted he didn't want a cake so we came up with this, cute no? :) My dad turned 49 on saturday! The whole family gang trooped over to jb to spend the weekend at my dad's new place, damn coolzz, got swimming poolzz! Plus little step-cousins are damn cute!! I really like little kids i realise. I've decided on what i want already haha! I've been having good days :) Caught up with zee family after donkey years, plus manymany precious friends too. Like, last night with zarifah was whooptidoo! thanks lovely! :D & ncc day rehearsal on friday was awesomeeeeee! Gosh, it was exactly what i needed to end the month of studying, (Hence the reason why i haven't quite re-started but whatever) and it felt so damn good to be back in the greens with more or less the same-old, noisy fun-loving people. My sweetest escape from reality, it's an addiction i realise, a sweet one. :D Hah, i cant wait for this friday! K i wanted to say sth to spoil the entire tone of this post, but nope! Happy gay banana days ya'll, adiouzzz. Realize, 6/25/2009 noone but me from URL @ 11:33 PM I feel quite heavy hearted, i hope the feeling goes away soon ): Anyhoooo, hello to everyone i saw this week! A whole lotta people, a whole lotta comfort & happiness. :) Going to malaysiaaaa, it better not get listed as a h1n1 country while im there, adious amigozz. i drew a line, i drew a line for you, oh what a thing to do 6/20/2009 noone but me from URL @ 11:47 AM This wait for destiny won't do, Be with me, please, I beseech you. Damage done to brain due to studying.  Chillaxzz by the riverrr. (after studying)  Sleepover and baking of cookies! (subway style k)  Weekly visit to see my darling B &talktalktalk haha.  Ics farewell, actually thompang-ed 3ppl!  gay love, hohoho!  my successful attempt at seducing a dude! :D  susususususususususususususmitha! :D  --- My mom has turned vegetarian because she says it cuts down on about 760 pounds of carbon emission each day she doesn't eat meat. & she's just started an eco-solutions consultation 'business' on top of her eco-travel portal which i think is damnnn coool. I think my mom is someone i wna be in the future, know? Go all out and do something about what i feel strongly for; and she's lucky cos she's doing it for a living, so her life's like an adventure. She's damn coooolzzzzz. So any parents with bigggg businesses looking to go eco, my mom can get ya'll solar panels haha. & yeah, i have issues with dealing with the truth i realise, this isn't a first. But i dont know, dont see how it can be done when it comes to certain truths. I get so damn scared i dont even want to think about it, dont even want to pray, just cos doing those stuff would mean that the problem really exists. But it more than does, so i'm going to church later. I believe in miracles, someway or another i do. I am just very scared, so i'm gna leave it with God. I want to say so many things, takeback things i've said and say things i've always felt but never said, but i dont know how. I know i must because i'm given the chance, but i dont know how. You were so much larger than life, and i'm just a coward who tells all this to people who dont matter in this situation. Days have been fine, just needed to blog so that when i come back 2 years later i know that there was a bit more to life than studying. I'm glad i see you everyday roopi :} Next week will be eggciting i think. Breakfast on thurs, ncc day on fri, dad's bday and haaaa on sat, niece's 1month prayer on sunday & cts on monday! Whooptidoooo. I cant wait for cts to be done, cos i think it's gna be another screwup, hopefully just a smaller one; i cant wait to start studing hardcore and score at my prelims and then ace my As :) Yeahhh, so i gotstogotochurch now, seee ya'll some other time. when darkness turns to light, it ends tonight 6/15/2009 noone but me from URL @ 10:24 PM HAPPY HALF-NEW YEAR EVERYBODY! :D Its just this year that being exactly halfway through the year seems to mean so much more; no wait, its just this year that it actually means something to me. Halfway through the year, more than halfway through till the As are done. Halfway means a lot don't you think? I have a truckload of things to do apart from studying and im shit scared. I hate the feeling of not giving my best for sth, because that's what's gna happen cos i dont have time. Grrrrrrrrr. & i lost my ez link card today. Buttttttt, hahaha im a happy girl :} A pathetic happy girl. blame it on the blue tab, gotcha feeling dizzy 6/13/2009 noone but me from URL @ 11:14 PM The way i wanna love you, well it could be against the law HAPPY notsoreal BIRTHDAY BUDDDYYYY!! :D Hahaha i'll give you a proper shoutout on your bday, i cant believe i never knew it was fake till like sec 4! Hurry home sunmeng, we're all waiting. So is your black carrot cake & sugar cane juice heh. Today was a not-so-productive but nice day :) Nish only, hurrrryyy home from batam, so long alr know grrrrr. (yesyes miss you) I realise that i'm an impulse shopper, i like our new bag! After the As, i'm gna seize hold of a high paying job, give some of zee money to parents and then just spend. Spendspendspend and thennnn, save. Savesavesave. Wellll, I think i kinda deserve to after holding back soooo much & it'll feel so damn good, but then again it is money so we'll see. Money money money, you're so funnny. I reallyreally like the title of my post! :} Haha. This blog is dead and its strange that i like it this way. But i know a number of you secret readers, hah! hi. Anyway random but not so, people's shy faces are damn funny, love it heh :D Esp when they try to mix natural shy with fake indifference or anger hohoho merrrrry christmas! Come on friendzzz, stop being so shy! Hahahah. & on another note, i feel very touch-and-go with my life itself. The only thing that seems real, or slightly larger than life to me right now is my studies. & Although i'm aware that i'm missing out on so much more, it doesn't seem to matter as much. I feel a bit selfish, but then again break it or make it i choose make and whatever it takes. I know i've got most of my priorities right so i guess i'm gna keep going the way i'm going. Still, touch-and-go doesn't feel like the rightest thing. But then again, this is just what i'm saying. Im sure on the subconscious level a lot more in my life means a lot more to me. (Like all the people i miss): + manifestations in dreams haha) In that case, i realise that consciously, quite a lotta other people's lives mean slightly more to me than mine haha. I just dont like dealing with mine, i'm an escapist and shoot me cos i know it. What do you think? I'm thinking that even if you choose not to deal with something, it'll still come back to you. Hmmm. I quote patricia, "If I'm missed, if I'm remembered. If it was random, if you were reminded." Stop and think, it makes so much sense. Goodnight ya'll! back to square one, what say you? This is not a coincidence, would you like to try 6/10/2009 noone but me from URL @ 10:23 PM Today roopi went "oli go poly!" Hahahaha. I want to, need to, must and can be more productive. I've got my external sources up, hate my current hp wallpaper & poster's hideous but it'll do; (I'm thinking Laws Of Attraction yo) all I need's my internal motivation and I'm good to go. A bit late for CTs, but i'll keep going for my Azzzz in the big fat Azzzzz :D Hahaha yes, hello everybodyyyy. The sarah who used to be a little pyscho about '6 points' for Os is in action again for her 'As for As' battle. Nope, honestly dont feel so driven yet but i will be soon, if i psycho myself. Hope you've been productive and feel good to go too. Take it easy ya'll. You are the epitome of unpredictable, butttttttt, but. I'll take the stretch. Oh i miss people ): Staring into space, what a lonely face I'll try to find my place with you 6/07/2009 noone but me from URL @ 12:06 PM I hope that 2 years later i'd want to be where i am today, like how a part of me wants to be where i was 2 years ago, today. .jpg) .jpg)  .jpg)    .jpg) .jpg) .jpg) .jpg)     I shall go print allll these peektures and paste them all over my room simply cos they make me happy. Despite the downs, i've had & am having a good life and im grateful :) Live for the now, it's the only thing that matters no? Okay and the future, but heck that when we're talking about happiness. Spent friday studying with roopi, spent sat studying with ganesh reading (& linky popping by), spending today w dad & bro at church and studying (soon), spending tonight and monday (sleeping, talking but mostly) studying with roopi, spending tuesday at some workshop and then studying, spending wednesday at school (talking to adlin) and then studying, spending my time, studying. ! Check out my lifeeeeeeeeeeeee. Yucks. I'm just glad i get to meet people, please slot yourselves in k :) &&& CONGRATS KETEPEKS! Couldn't be there, but hahaha ya'll are awesome mannz! :D KKK its raining now, i shall go take a nap (if not how to stay awake tonight right!) and then get down to work. Adious Samigozz. One minute i held the key, next the walls were closed on me 6/06/2009 noone but me from URL @ 12:37 AM The pursuit of happyness, Can you say that you truly feel happy for someone and mean it, completely? I mean, entertaining the thought itself renders it to be a conscious attempt, which just means that, nope, aware or not you aren't completely happy. Make sense? I think so. I don't think anyone is capable of being completely happy. Opportunity Cost no? Happiness here would just mean a sadness elsewhere, but not too far away. Eitherways, happiness doesn't have to be expressed to be felt i realise; well not explicitly at least. Because its beauty is that it just gets carried across naturally. When you feel it, you know it, and I guess if it makes you crack the smallest smile, you're happy enough. No, you're genuinely happy enough :} You never have to be a 100% happy for someone to feel true to that person; it might be me being small, but i don't think that's humanly possible. Hmmm. I think happiness in its purity, is when it's derived from the most simple joys. 'Come on get higher', i like this song very much! Alrightyho, goodbyeeee, have a good weeeekend! You make it easy. Im closer to where i started, 6/01/2009 noone but me from URL @ 11:52 PM Cos I Love you so,          Everytime i try to rearrange the photos the stupid internet explorer keeps "error"ing on me, so wth. I just wna spam more, more and a whole lot more of the pictures above cos they make me feel so damned happy. I was feeling like grrrrrrrrr awhile ago thanks to sth i shall not reveal in case of political reasons (hoho) but looking through the pictures just made me feel happy and light-hearted all over again. :} I love ya'll very very strawberry many many much! It's magic yo, good old friends enjoying brand new times. Timeless priceless love. I dont like the holidays so much cos i dont get to see people like adlin, sus & my lovelies so often. Another reason to grrrrrr. tell me tell me, what makes you think that you are invincible?
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